Friday, April 01, 2011

Not As We

"Reborn and shivering
Spat out on new terrain
Unsure unconvincing
This faint and shaky hour
Day one, day one
Start over again
Step one, step one
I'm barely making sense
For now I'm faking it
'Til I'm pseudo making it
From scratch begin again but this time I as I
And not as we"
(Morissette, 2007)

A funny thing happens when you are "with" someone. You spend all your spare time with them and friends get put on the back burner. Now, this is the natural course of things, and we all understand that it happens, and while it sucks for the friends who seem to lose their friend, we all want the best for our friends, and what is better than love, right?

The problem then comes after a relationship ends, and you are suddenly the odd one out. The one without a date. The third wheel at all dinners and functions.You start to feel as though perhaps you just need to be stamped "single" across you forehead so you can easily be identified by others of your kind in crowds. So much adjusting to do. No longer can you assume you have plans on Friday nights. And, when you are able to pry a friend away from their significant other, you know their mind is thinking about getting home to their lover, not about you.

So, to another lonely night, and to all my friends who are feeling as I am, best of luck in finding what truly brings you joy.

Until later,
~Jen